I hope you will take a few moments to listen and allow Him to remind you that he is here. He continues to be my Comforter, Encourager and Healer. When God dropped the words to this song in my heart it only further confirmed how close He truly is. I still don’t have any answers to the “Why now, God?” but I trust him with my whole heart even when I can’t see Him. I could never have made it this far without Him and without my faith in Him. Let's have a cup of tea before you remind me why you're here. It made me realize that God isn’t just in the high places, like Heaven. There were indeed oaks all over the property but I was pleased to see a healthy sprinkling. I felt His arms wrapped around me in a way I had never, ever felt before. Even during those first dark, devastating hours the one thing I felt more than the overwhelming sadness and disbelief that my girl was gone from this earth was the holy presence of my Heavenly Father. I'd told her a hundred times it was the sort of thing you were supposed to keep in your bathroom, but she'd wanted it out here. No, these memories won’t ever go away, but I’ve also found something else that will never go away. Walking this grief journey is no joke and as much I wish it weren’t true, no amount of time will ever make it completely disappear. Pictures in my mind that cannot be erased. The Holy Spirit was preparing me for the inevitable words I would soon hear, “This is the medical examiner, are you the mother of Melanie…”Ī non-life-threatening medical situation and this is where I found myself. Hoping against hope it would not be true even though in my gut I knew. on the phone as it was passed from one police officer to another before they could confirm it was my daughter they found. As I thought about my husband’s medical situation my thoughts took me back to the day Melanie died. Disorder and Reorder EP releases will be announced in the New Year. (If you haven’t read my post In the Blink of An Eye, check it out here.) I wasn’t expecting my daughter to die, yet here I am, part of a group no one ever wants to join. Father remind me You’re here (From the Remind Me You’re Here chorus) The cascading release of Order Disorder Reorder has been divided into three parts to give time and space to reflect on one part of the journey before digging into the next, Gray says. If you’re walking this grief journey, then you know how fragile life is and how it can change in the blink of an eye. The things I used to take in stride have now become like mountains instead of molehills. Since Melanie went on to heaven, I discovered that my stress level is high and my tolerance for things is very low. Nothing life threatening yet I found my anxiety going through the roof. My husband had some medical issues crop up. As I hit play and let the words seep into my spirit it was just like someone was reading my mail, and you know what? Someone was. When I got up and plugged them into YouTube up popped the song, Remind Me You’re Here, by Jason Gray. Remind Me Youre Here by Jason Gray explores themes of trust, faith, and the struggle to understand Gods presence in times of pain and confusion. These were the words from a song in the night (Job 35:10) that I found myself tapping into my phone at 2:30 this morning. I won’t ask you for reasons … I don’t need all the answers.
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